on my love/hate relationship with sugar

So after a month of if-not-quite-no-but-a-lot-less sugar

I can at least draw a few outlines

as to the why and when and what.

Obviously the worst is in extreme fatigue

(be it physical or mental)

those are the times when I hardly stop to think

my brain lights up with a flashing 

"Carbohydrate! Yaay! Get as much as you can! As fast as you can!"

and I do exactly so.

I suppose that's evolutionary behaviour 

a pattern that has served survival for thousands of years

(not any longer, though, or at least not under my first-world circumstances). 

What I can do is either

a) have no very sugary stuff at hand, or

b) avoid excessive fatigue 

(the second being the best but the less doable option).

Other than that, simply knowing that 

"I don't choose sweet"

helped immensely 

in everyday (bakery, canteen, coffee shop, pub) situations.

That's absolutely something to consider keeping (or putting on, like a _habit_).

And then there are the vices

to my surprise, I am o.k. without 

or, to my even greater surprise, with just a few bits of

chocolate

(see Abstainer vs. Moderator)

but I often found it difficult to resist sweet bakery-stuff

which then turned out to be disappointing each time

(maybe also because these weren't fresh any longer but still)

that is again something to keep in mind 

for future reference. 

I wasn't tempted by any [cukrászda] in November

but home-baked cookies and cakes did show up at times

and those were the sweets that were definitely worth it.

I ate fruit (fresh, canned and dried)

and even drank fruit juice (though I usually diluted it with water)

so maybe I could've done more

in terms of changing my taste--

that time may or may not come.

What I'd try now (if I had the nerve to any more changes nowadays) would be

to cut back on carbohydrates in general

and mostly on white flour.

That of course were easier if I cooked

I did start shifting towards whole-grain in quite a few foods earlier 

(like pasta, couscous and oat flakes).

Maybe after moving back home 

I could start cooking...?

Zs. sent an article on meal-prepping

that was quite inspiring 

maybe that could dissolve some of the drag

I mean, really, the most tiresome parts of cooking are

1) working out what to make, and

2) cleaning and chopping stuff.

If those were done in an hour or two each week

then I might happily cook three or four times, I guess.