on anxiety

I have to finally face the fact

that it isn't over

(yet? ever?)

my whole inside is being squeezed

almost every time when I stop to notice

and not stopping isn't really the best solution, I'm afraid

however happily I tend to choose it.

Bad thoughts (though not the suicidal type) are attacking again

this will be a difficult Advent

(was I seriously thinking it won't?)

And yet

what else is there to do

than to

carry on

and 

hope 

as 

long 

as 

I

breathe
?