On Sunday I told two sets of people
about the name-reboot
and my intention to get a new adoption-eligibility paper
somehow both conversations
turned to the dissolving of the sacramental marriage
and eventually, I think, none of the 6 people said a single word
to the adoption part
Today I invited P. over for lunch
(he was there on Sunday)
and he told me that A.
(whom she had told with my explicit permission)
"was glad for the news"
thinking that it was some
forward-looking action on my part finally
I came home Sunday evening with serious doubts as to
how good an idea it was
to tell the second set of people
there and then
the mood certainly wasn’t one for deep talk
but then I was burning to tell them
(at least the first part but someone inevitably asked the "why now")
Anyway, as time goes by, I feel less and less sure
about how good an idea the whole thing is
I procrastinated filling in the questionaire
(meaning that I couldn’t watch the online film club’s choice either)
and I still had to write the CV but I feel unable to do it
I wonder if the silence of my people contributed to it
or if it is my better judgement speaking from the depths
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