2020. november 10.

on withdrawal

A month or so ago 
I started weaning myself off the antidepressant
very cautiosly, cutting just one sixth of the dose
now I am down to two third
and I wonder if I can really feel it
or if it's just placebo withdrawal

or simply some generic pain before bed
trying to avoid
looking the inner emptiness in the eye
horror vacui

(Meanwhile, I am having
The Most Embarrassing 
dreams of my life
seriously, I won't be able to 
look some people in the eye 
if it goes on much longer)

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