be glad you've had it

I remember once about 20 years ago

we had some homelessteam-supervison or training

or maybe some other conference

the occasion isn't important in fact

but I remember M. V.

guru of all things homeless-care

saying that if someone gets into a flat for three months

and then back to the street

we shouldn't complain that he couldn't make it (again)

but be glad that he had three good months

This popped in my head a few days ago

that I had 4 solid good months

and that's reason to celebrate

I'll see if and when I'll have the next few

because now it is pretty bad again

although more managable, certainly

I cry quite often

and things come up and make me sad & bitter

that I thought I've put behind me for forever

like marriage, pregnancy or giving birth

I feel as though I was denied some basic right

something that's so simple and natural and 

was it really too much to ask? 

To be like everyone else...?