and meanwhile, the emotional neediness

I spent a weekend in Pozsony with S.

and then a few-hours walk with N.

(both one-on-one)

and both were great times

but like the stereotypical man, 

neither showed any inclination to share anything from his inside

I wonder whether this is something to accept as it is

or something to work on

but maybe this is what prevents me 

from falling for anyone

and if so then I should be very grateful indeed

because I do feel the itch